The Snail Killing Fields...

That's what its like around my apartment complex in the evenings after it has rained. That's when the snails come out, they come out in droves, they are everywhere...the bushes, grass, sidewalks. Its the sidewalks that are most problematic for the poor unsuspecting snails. People walk around the complex, to the mail, to walk the dog, back and forth from their cars...all totally oblivious to the many, MANY snails that are covering the sidewalks. The defenseless snails who are just out for a stroll, not realizing their lives are in serious jeopardy at the hands (ok, make that soles) of the humans. It is dark afterall and really who's thinking about snails? Well, except for me. After you've murdered a snail you try to be more careful, the crunch and smoosh that you hear is a sound that haunts you. But then you move on and start thinking about something else...and then WHAM, you've commited another homicide. In the light of morning after such a night you'll find their smooshed bodies all about. Sometimes you'll even see a live snail grieving over the body of his friend. Its quite sad really.

Please take a moment of silence to honor the dead snails.

Thank you...now you may go about your day.

Strike 569,347,812

So I pulled and pushed and shoved and sweated and cussed many times and got Katelyn's crib set up in our room today. Which was quite a feat considering there really is no room for the crib, let alone enough to maneuver around to put it all together. And I have yet to figure out where to put all the crap that was previously in the place where the crib is now. All in the hopes that maybe she'll sleep better in it than in the pack-n-play bassinet thing. I'm pretty much over sharing my bed every night (my back can't take it much longer) and spending half my day sitting on my ass because the only place she'll nap is on me (or battling with her over 10 minute naps if I decide I'm not going to let her sleep on me.)
She fell asleep a while ago, I laid her down, gave her the binky, patted her butt...she was out. Took dog out, got mail. Ethan followed me, then decided to run back into house and get Ryen. Who, btw, had already come outside and ran the opposite way around the building. Ethan yells and yells and yells for Ryen in the house...and wakes the baby up. Total nap time approximately 4.5 minutes.

Another week...

another whole lot of nothing to say.

We are officially staying in this crap-hole apartment for 3 more months. I can deal with the overwhelming lack of space, but there is one thing that I just don't know if I can. And that is the shower. It has only 2 temperatures, scalding hot and ice cold. It freely moves between those two extremes at will. Sure you can try and adjust it, but it has a mind of its own and does what it wants anyway. Sometimes it doesn't even know what it wants...for example it will be scalding (I'm talking about so hot your skin starts to blister and peel just being a foot away from the water), then will start its decent to cold and you will feel SO relieved, but no, it was just a tease, back to scalding again. Sometimes, like maybe 2 or 3 times a week, you can catch a moment of pure pleasure where you can actually stand in the water for about 15 seconds. *sigh* That's nice... I spend every morning cursing. Why not have them fix it you ask?? Well because it supposedly HAS already been fixed. The whole building had the problem and they found something broken and replaced it. 'Cept ours only got worse. Plumber guy blames it on the new shower head we put in with the hose thingy so y ou can take it down. Whatever... A shower head does not make the water stay supremely hot for like 10 minuters even when you've turned the dial as cold as it goes.

Been in a funk lately...

I haven't posted much lately cuz I just haven't had anything good to say. I'm so frustrated with so many aspects of my life right now and its just getting depressing. This week I tried to force myself to get some exercise every day and open the blinds to let some light in. I did good on the light part, the exercise not so much...but some is better than none right? I started feeling a bit better anyway, not great, but better.

I weighed myself on Monday and it was 274.5, I didn't even have the toffee to blame, LOL, so I know the gain is just been me being so down about everything. Since I'm trying out this Bob Greene thing I can't weigh myself again for 4 weeks per the rules of Phase 1. That will be REALLY hard for me, but hopefully it'll be good at the end of it. Phase 1 is composed of organizing your meals better (eating breakfast for sure, and then 1-2 snacks between the other meals), drinking enough water, increasing exercise, and not eating after like 7 or 8 at night. I've got the meal thing down, I did exercise more this week, I did make sure to drink plenty of water *almost* every day, the not eating at night thing is another hard thing.

The kids are all feeling better. Ryen and Katelyn still occasionally cough, but mostly they are all over their ailments. Hopefully it'll last a while! I still feel like I'm coming down with something about every other day but I haven't gotten officially sick yet, maybe its allergies or something.

Oh, and in case anyone is confused like I was...I started this post days ago and never finished, so I'm actually posting it in the morning on the 10th, not Tuesday.

Boring and yet crazy week

So I haven't had much to say this week, too much going on and too many sick kids I guess. At the same time it feels like its been a really looooooong week and like nothing happened...which is really far from the truth. Tuesday had to take a trip to the peds office, Ethan has an ear infection and pneumonia, Katelyn has bronchiolitis and is getting breathing treatments. I didn't have her check Ryen cuz I was afraid of what she'd find (and he didn't seem too bad off), but he's got the stuffy nose and cough too. I've been fighting it off, but I'm about to give up the fight and just wish to get sick and get it over with! Wednesday was Ethan's birthday, he's SO excited to be 6. I think he had a good day, I took cupcakes to his school, he had a friend over to play, he got 3 boxes of gifts and a new scooter from us. And that's about it.